The 20s are a highly documented time in our lives.
From podcasts to posts to infinite films and songs documenting the process of being young, I feel, though, that not many come close to capturing the anxiety of indecision that comes with being in your early 20s.
I know to some that may sound dramatic or ungrateful, and I am grateful, of course, to be experiencing this part of life with my health and body still able to support me fully. But that doesn’t discount the parts of my mind that wander and wonder why a constant sense of inadequacy lingers, and the feeling of being stuck becomes a constant.
Category Archives: Thoughts
Why Walking is Important
Visiting a new place is scary, but here are some top tips to make the most of your travel experience.
That is what every trained media professional or influencer will tell you when trying to show you the beauty of a place through rose-coloured glasses, in which they show themselves on top of a mountain or walking through a bright, bustling market. The “but” obscures the actual process of arriving in a place and being faced with the fears and insecurities that come with being a foreigner, and the fact that you are usually being perceived by all those around you. Or that’s what my mind tricks me into thinking.
The truth is, people will look but won’t remember. The glance you think is judging you is extremely temporary before the person continues on with their day, since they are thinking of their own issues and tasks that need doing instead of considering your clothes, origin or when you last showered. It really is that simple.
The Art of Noticing
There is a sticker on a lamppost that reads “get lost”. The lamppost hasn’t been cleaned in a number of years so the sticker calls out to those who view it, as a blinding yellow circle. I listen.
There is a bench dedicated to a woman from her husband after her death five years ago and I sit there and wonder what she looked like when she was alive and if she would have liked to have a bench dedicated to her. Maybe she would have hated it. Maybe she wanted a plaque on a birch tree instead.
To Be Away
Disclaimer: this post was written whilst listening to a playlist of the same title. “I don’t even remember the season. I just remember walking between them and feeling for the first time that I belonged somewhere.” – stephen chbosky – The perks of being a wallflower. As we enter a New Year and, what I’dContinue reading “To Be Away”
The Joyousness of Missing Out
This, for me, has become a problem. I hate to miss out on things. Hate it. And hate is a strong word. Not to be used lightly. Although, I’m sure many people share this ‘fear of missing out’ mentality, it rarely can come to a point where a genuine fear develops that can leave youContinue reading “The Joyousness of Missing Out”
What being bilingual means to me.
For those that may not know me, as the majority don’t since I haven’t made that much of an impact on the world being 18 an’ all, I’m bilingual. Specifically bilingual in German, which in hindsight isn’t the most helpful language to be fluent in, in comparison to other languages such as Spanish or MandarinContinue reading “What being bilingual means to me.”
What defines ‘Normal’?
What defines a ‘normal’ person? Normal isn’t a concept but more likely an idealistic structure on life that maybe fits closer to the view propaganda had in the 1950’s on ‘the perfect normal life’. With a pastel coloured car, straight white children and a house with a picket fence. Of course, this is outdated and generallyContinue reading “What defines ‘Normal’?”
For Wanderers and Wonderers 